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yepp. ^ dots ^ things atm dont really have a title.

swim club

well, swim club's started back which i was dreading but its actually pretty fun atm. me n jack r close again, and i hang around with him, and of course matt follows around. jordan's there too, my new friend from last season. I guess thats our little group. i also hang around with tayla and elise and sit over their side sometimes. and cait comes sometimes to hang out with us ( and for additive reasons i have sworn to keep secret - for now anyway)

I am still not great at swimming, but thats probably because i havent trained since like forever, and i cant be bothered training either. club's more like a fun thing for me now, not competitive. But, the downside is, im in the carnival next week for ~ EVERY STROKE ~ even butterfly!!! its like the stroke developed by the devil to torture and make complete fools of us mere mortals. Im in it because im the only girl in my age group swimming atm. pheobe has been off at a school camp, and elise has been sick!! kill me. i am attempting to refuse to do butterfly, but so far it hasnt worked :(

<3

a certain someone has started flirting with me and i dont know whether i like them. i am 50% hoping that it is just this thing they r getting into a habit of it, like flirting with all the girls, or trying to make his ex jealous, but 50% of me isnt. i think that if he asked me out, i would say yes, but it would be awkward coz me and his ex are greatttt friends, but she says she thinks me n him would be cute together, but i dont know if she means it.. im trying not to give out names in case im wrong about this whole thing and someone from school reads it. but i might have already given it away, but hey, as i said - i could be wrong!! also there is someone else who i might possibly like, but i think its just a crush (as mentioned in a previous post)

school & friends

school is getting harder and harder. not academically, thats all fine, but the whole getting up to go to school. im soooooooooo tired lately. i dont even know why. it might just be as simple as sleeping more, or im just wiped from school the day b4.

omg last friday we disected a BULL'S EYE!! not the dart board bulls eye - no - it was a real live (or not so live) bull's eye. it was so awesomely disgusting!! i cut it with scissors to open up the front and the jelly stuff on the inside oooooozzeeddd out it was so cool! i was really worried @ the start, but turned out i didnt mind it at all. that kinda surprised me coz i cant watch RPA (this hospital thing on tv that shows u all of the surgery on patients - i hate it - needles *shudder*) but the eye didnt bother me. me n daniel were playing around with the jelly while dishmini and supun were looking at the lens of the eye which was awesome coz it was like a magnifying glass and we were reading the news paper with it lol. it was pretty coolio.

my friends are as good as ever. there isnt really much to tell i guess. we r getting along, me n cait getting stronger everyday since we had our little ignoring period when simone came into the picture. im getting used to having her around and having to (im trying to make this sound better but i cant) share cait with her. simone isnt too bad, you just have to get used to having her around, thats all. me n her are friends, but not really close friends. she'd be one of those types of people you smile to in passing, or have the odd conversation about something and get along well.

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lol yep. more dots.

im like realllyyyy into music at the moment. and dad's downloaded a program called 'eMule' which i can get music off. it was on mums computer and i kept using to get my music, and now i have it, ive gone nuts. everyday i think i get a new song from it. :) in fact, right now, i am listening to the music, and downloading some too. ive dowloaded songs from movies (back to the future, ferris bueller's day off) and the whole version of the theme song from big bang theory (its so quirky!!) and just other songs.

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single pringle ;)

i have no shame in being single :) i am actually loving it. no pressures on wanting to see the guy, no pressures of not including him in the group etc. i was actually reading this book my mum gave me (dont ask) about the teenage years, its actually reaaaaallllllllyyyyy good. its like a step by step thing on being a teenage girl and all the worries n stuff. it sounds lame but it isnt :)

it had this section on relationships, and (this next bit i see as very true) it says this (i dont have the book in front of me right now, this is just from the top of my head what i remember)::

there is no shame in being single. It is not a bad thing, it actually gives you a lot more freedom. Lots of girls think that they are 'not good enough' for a guy, or they are 'not girlfriend material'. This is ridiculous! All girls have the capabilities to have or get a guy. You just have to wait for the right one. Here are some positives to being single:

• You can go wherever you want when you want without having to think if he will approve
• You can flirt with whoever you want when you want
• You can fool around and be completely yourself (though guys like to think we can be normal around them, it is a bit embarrassing sometimes)
• You can have great girl's nights out without wanting to text him to say goodnight

I also thought of some of my own (besides the ones i mentioned @ the start) ::

• You can walk around without people stopping you and saying 'you're going out with that guy, right?' and asking all ridiculous questions about it
• You can check out guys without caring or thinking twice
• You can flirt with whoever you want ( i know this was said above, but i thought i'd re-mention it haha)
• You can pay more attention to guys who look at you as you walk through a shopping centre/mall like garden city (garbo)
• You can laugh with your friends at whether they think 'that guy over there is checking you out!'

so yep. i might even have a crush already. =S i mean i have been thinking about this guy for a while, and used to majoorrllyyy like him, but now i think its just a crush and will wear off, but i dont care, its actually fun having a crush coz u get so excited when ur around the guy, and u end up having more fun coz ur flirting or trying to impress.

so id just like to say to anyone who feels stupid coz they r single - get a laugh out of it why you can and stop feeling so sad about it.

im not saying that my time with michael was wasted. maybe that last bit (the last about 5ish weeks) might have been, but the rest was just like being in heaven (not the dead part, the good part) but i got over it and glad it ended when it did. :)

life has settled

at one stage there, my life seemed like one of those snow globe things, how it was all settled, and everything was working out well, and just staying there, but then its like someone came along and shook it, sending all those bits flying around, nothing fitting right and life pretty much going to hell. let me explain::

1. caitlin hung around with simone and didnt pay any attention to me
2. the guys didnt really talk to me much because they would be playing soccer
3. as a result of the above ( ^^^^^^^^^^^ ) i would sit on my own at lunch watching the guys like a loner (oh fun)
4. i have been considering breaking up with michael for quite a few weeks now (since about 2 weeks b4 holidays) and realised over the holidays i didnt want to go out with him anymore for definite. i didnt even miss him - but i couldnt get to talk to him to tell him.
5. if i did get the chance to talk to him, i wouldnt have been able to without crying for stupid nonreasons.

so yeah life sucked.

but now its awesome!!

cait and mitch broke up, (im not saying this is good) which made caitlin talk to me, because she trusted me enough to tell me she would, then she started hugging me and everything now. so, problem number one, is no more

problem #2 is also solved, because without having caitlin, mitch has become a better friend towards me, the same with the other guys, so i was playing soccer with them today which was funny. the guys have all started being stupid towards cait tho... they r teasing her and simone, but caitlin knows that just coz i hang with them doesnt mean i think the same as them, so i can be safely on both sides without people hating me aswell.

problems 3 & 4 were solved today at lunch. the last bits of the snow globe finally settling. michael came to our group, and we walked away and he suggested we didnt 'see eachother anymore' and i whole heartedly agreed, sooooooo relieved that he had done it. he started sounding like he was coming up with excuses i didnt really care about, but i listened anyway.

i still realllyyy wanna be friends with him, im just glad i dont have to awkwardly hug him anymore haha.

so yep - life is great atm, and i have to go.

i shall post again soonish.

[end of cania gorge camping]

i forgot to mention in the last post that we went for a drive to the gold mines, and it was a 4WD track, and we hit something and the car shut down. we thought it mightve been out of petrol (nope) Terry is the car guy too, so he was doing everything to try fix it, then had to drive an hour and a half back to the site to get some petrol and see if that was it, so i had to sit on the side of a dirt road, reading twilight, listening to music for over an hour and when he came back it turned out that wasnt the problem. so eventually we just went back with terry - which was great coz he drives fast on 4WD tracks, and i love all the bumps of 4WD and the thrill of it, but mum and hannah didnt so they were freaking out when i was completely calm, still listening to music.
RACQ went back to get the car and tried to fix it, but obviously, seeing as it is a week since we got back and we still have the hire car, they havent been successful. the hire car didnt have a tow ball, so we had to leave the trailer there, and Fred (uncle) picked it up and its at their house.

so, the ride home:.:.:

so we packed up all the tents and tarps and everything and put it in BERT (Big Extremely Red Trailer) and left in the hire car (toyota camry)at around 1 i think it was... on that gold mine drive, i have learned that i get car sick, but not where i throw up, i just get pains in my stomach like u get when u r sick, but no feeling like im gonna throw up, and i get a hugeeee head ache. so, when i got into the car for what i didnt doubt was going to be a hellish drive home, i put in my music which i had charged all the previous night, and turned it right up and stared out the window. just before we left the camp site we went to check out and me mum and dad got a latte for the drive, then in the town closeish by we stopped at a servo to get some chips for lunch, then we were off.

it was a few hours in and there it was, that sick feeling. 'oh great' it hought to myself, and turned the music up full bore so that i couldnt even hear the purr of the engine of the camry hire car (which was a nice drive btw). after a while i realised i was absent-mindedly lip-syncing to 21 Guns (greenday) and wondered for how many songs i had been doing this. i switched to my songs by The Script (my fave band) just as we were pulling up for a stop. when we were getting back in mum got out some food, and i asked for some savoury stuff, because the thought of sugary food just made me feel sick. i reallyyy did not want any. so i had a hard boiled egg and mum got out some chips, which werent sweet, so i ate some. i was feeling a bit better after being able to get out of the car into fresh air (im not too keen on a 'new car smell' when i feel like this) once again it was in to the car, and in with the music.

it was getting to around 6.30 and we were coming up to gympie. i had caught myself lip-syncing to some of the script songs again, and laughed at myself. this earned me a strange look from my sisters. my headache was getting worse, and i couldnt wait to get away from the sickening 'new car smell'. we pulled into hungry jacks for dinner, which was disgusting, and i took one sip of my coke and it repulsed me because it was so sweet. i couldnt drink anymore of that stuff yukkk!! mum and dad were laughing at me because i was actually repulsed by sweet food. they started teasing me that they would get out the chocolate in the car and i thought this idea would sicken me, but even car sickness cant dull my desire for chocolate. hehe. so about half an hour of music, (which im sure was going to eventually deafen me because to distract me from this hell i was experiencing the music was blasting in my ears. thats ok though - its good music ) later, mum, did indeed bring out some chocolate. of course cadbury. it made me feel a bit better actually, than what i had expected (- worse)

a few more hours and we were home. 8.00 we arrived home. 7ish hour drive including stops - not too bad (for people who didnt feel like they were being tortured)

but overall it was a good camping trip. i have made a mental note that next time we go on a long drive to camp to bring at least 4 books. i could have finished the two that i brought twice each. i finished twilight within the first 10 minutes of the drive, and then started Harry Potter again. I gave up though because its a bit boring having so recently read it.

great week + horrible sickn feeling drive home = cania gorge camping trip 2009 :)

[continuation of camping- cania gorge]

so the next day we finished setting up completely and settled in for the week ahead. the heat wasnt too bad, but i could tell we were in for a hot one. around lunch time we got a message from the office saying my aunt and uncle had called saying they were gonna come and visit us the next day. this would be awesome coz i hadnt seen them in at least 2 years i think. we didnt do much that day, i read a bit more, ate a magnum (YUM) and when vannessa's family came helped them set up a bit and then we were were just lazy.

the relatives came the next day, with a surprise - my cousin and her husband!! melanie is my favouriteeeee cousin and we have been pretty much great friends since i was around 4ish. she is 30 this year, and there is a hugeee age difference but we still get along really well. her husband's cool too. we all caught up, me n mel and my sisters went on the jumping pillow, eventually joined by Kurtis (vannessa'a son). which was fun coz melanie was freaking out and i made her fall over a few times, so she kept doing the same to me. I would tackle hannah, and she'd keep coming back for more (strange child). we had lunch, went for a bit of a drive to the dam and then they left. it was a good day.

[now i cant really remember the order things happened past here, so im just gonna say what we did] one day we went for a walk up to see a cave, then a lookout, then another cave (the walk went past all three of these) the cave (called The Dragon's Cave) was awesome. it looked like one of those caves you'd see in fantasy movie with - can u believe it - dragons. i am so unfit now that it is not funny, its kinda sad actually, so by the time we got to the lookout, which was allll up hill, i was so tired. it wasnt even a great view, seeing as all the water had dried up and it hasnt rained in at least a year. the other cave wasnt as good, but it was still pretty impressive. we all decided that Terry (vannessa's husband - the joker) would have to buy us all ice-creams because we were all so tired. also, there was this big boulder and Terry was blocking the way so trying to get past him, and i scratched my hip on the boulder (of course, being me) and it started bleeding and the next day there was a huge yellow bruise there. it was a bit painful. hahaha its gone now tho.

we also did bird feeding, i did it twice, once the day before we left, and the other i think was the 4th day we were there. after it each time i had loaddssssssssss of scratches on my hands and arms. (so yep, ive been injured more than usual in a few days :P) and yeah some of them were bleeding a little but it was really cool with lorikeets, king parrots and galas, and then cockatoos above in the trees. it was awesome, worth the scratches.

ummm i went in the pool there twice, the first time it was so cold i could barely breathe, so we decided to get out. the second time it was blistering hot day, so it was really nice in there, but there was this guy who was staring at me the whole time, so i got out and put my sun shirt on over my bikini top coz i felt a bit awkward, but he still stared at me. he wasnt too bad looking tho... tanned and signs of abs. haha. but still. awwwkkwaarddddd

went on the jumping pillow a few more times too

it was soooo hot it was unimaginable for spring. i kept thinking 'just kill me, im gonna dieee'. it was blistering!! i didnt get sunburt tho. i just wanted to sit in their ice freezer. i walked around in singlet tops and short shorts, which i havent been able to do in agesss, and i was still so uncomfortably hot. so, we bought more ice cream. haha. i swear this was like the ice cream week. i think there was only one day we didnt have a magnum, it became kind of a tradtion. we had a different one everyday. hahaha. it was awesome.

campingg (cania gorge)

ok well thisll take ages to write so im gonna do them in different posts. lets start from the beginning....


I woke up (or got woken up by mum) at around 3 in the morning. usually I'm fine with the whole 'get up extremely early without wanting to collapse and sleep' thing so it wasnt too bad. Went around the house making sure I hadnt forgotten anything, and trying to wake myself up. It was freezing because the sun obviously wasnt up yet, but i got changed into my short shorts and a shirt anyway, coz i knew itd get hotter. we eventually got into the car with the trailer (we call it B.E.R.T - Big Extremely Red Trailer) on the back. I'd made suer to charge my phone so i could listen to my music, and not whatever music my sisters and parents had brought. I was glad I did, because the first CD in was Jimmy Barnes - great.... So, i put in my headphones, turned them up to full volume and prepared for the drive. As hard as i tried not to fall asleep, my stupid human instincts kicked in and i just drifted away. I probably wouldnt have if I had gotten to sleep at a reasonable time the night before, but of course I didnt. I got to sleep around 10.30 - 11.00 (probably swaying more towards the 11 mark...) so I'd only gotten about 4ish hours of sleep. I hate hate hate sleeping in the car tho, so it wasnt like I was knocked out, I kept randomly waking up then drifting again. I ended up taking out my headphones while i tried to get comfortable (impossible in a car) then I gave up after about say 1 and a half hours. but by this stage Hannah (sister - youngest) had fallen asleep on me. oh yay. it was hot enough already without her on me, and i could even push her off, because Samantha (sister - devil child) was asleep on Hannah!! This was going to be a long drive...

Eventually after a few hours we made it to Gympie for a healthy maccas breakfast :) haha. I made sure I got a coffee to prepare me for the next about 5 hours. I tried not to think that possily the next hour and a half i would have people laying on me asleep. It was a really good breakfast. The coffee was reallyyy good. (caramel latte hehe) After breakfast we got back in the car and up went the volume of my music again. I wasnt really in the mood to talk (though I was constantly asking for the air con to be turned up becuase of the heat my sister's pillow was putting on me) , so i tuned myself out by concentrating on the music. We stopped a few more times before lunch to get petrol, and I was so glad Hannah and Sam had had enough sleep. I'd also disocovered I'd over come my feeling sick when I read in the car and that was what I had been doing since we had left maccas. I was reading Harry Potter 7 for the second time because I'd forgotten what had happened, and was wishing I'd brought another book, because I was about a third through by the time we stopped for lunch, and we still had a few hours, and I knew I would read on the way back, but I would be finished before then. Lunch was good. I just had a pie, but it was really good for something you'd expect from a small country town. Back in the car I started reading again, also the music on, but I'd turned it down because mum was getting frustrated when she went to talk to me and I was unresponsive.

When we reached the camp site we had been driving for 8 and a half hours including stops. OhMyGod. I hated long trips and that was like my nightmare, so I wasnt in a good mood. the sisters would be talking to me when mum n dad went to sign us all in, which took longer than we expected, and I'd just get angry at them because they were being stupid. but my mood wasnt even improved by taking what seemed like forever to decide whos tents would go where. once we'd finally figured it out, I'd had enough waiting and went to grab my tent and the ground sheet to set it all up. mum was telling me n sam to work together, but i ended up being able to do it on my own, just needing some help to get the poles up, and my arm was dead by the end of hammering 12 poles in. then i had to help sam coz she's hopeless. it took the hannah mum n dad 3 hours to put up the tarp (its humungousssssss) because dad was being difficult about it, and then there was a hugeee gust of wind (it had been windy all day) and it bent one of the poles and the whole thing went down. mum was soooooo annoyed.

a while later after getting up a smaller tarp, we were set up. it was dark by then. so we didnt want to have to unpack everything, so we just had some sandwhiches and I was so tired that I went hyper and i think everyone else did too, because by the end of 'dinner' we were all laughing our heads off at everything and anything. I decided to give up and go to bed eventually.

good times :)

holidays are the best dont u reckon?? no pressure of school, no having to wake up in the morning with the pressure of having to get to the bus and to school, no homework to be thought about, free to just relax. yesterday all i did was read my book, yep, the entireeee day! i pretty much started it (hadnt long started) and finished it. i had to clean my room but that didnt take long, i just read and listened to music. in the afternoon i downloaded some more music, because after u listen to the same songs for a while u want new ones, and there are a few i have been meaning to get. today mum n dad are out and my sisters just got back from the park with friends so mum told me to go for a walk down to the shops and get out a DVD that i could watch, just so long as i ironed so there are clothes ready to be packed to go away, so, i did. the movie finished and i have been listening to my music. completelyyyy stress free so far.

but i dont want to hav e to start packing for camping. i love camping and everything, but i hate the before and after. setting up sucks, packing all the stuff before hand is possibly even worse, then packing up at the end of the week is just as depressing. all the in between stuff is the best tho, so i guess its all worth it in the end, yeah?

but before all that, tomorrow the relaxion is over, and we r going to wet n wild!! yayyyyy! my parents got us those pass things that get u into seaworld wet n wild or movie world, which is awesome because the weather atm is so hot and to be able to go to wet n wild is gonna be gr8. thats y i love summer. even tho its spring it feels like summer. the hot weather is great. im able to walk around in my shorts and singlets again and im gonna start straightening my hair a bit more if i can because its a lot cooler because it seems lighter straightened.

now im just dreading the going bck to school. i mean, i have maths first day back!! how unfair is that! it irks me just thinking of it :S

anyway ill talk to ya later!!

P.S yeah, i made the picture up the top ;)

where would u like to be right now??

i was thinking alot about the scenery up when we were camping. its beautiful up there, and i was thinking how everyone in there imagination must have a place where the scenery is to their personal taste, whether its in the snow, in the country, at the beach, in the city, or even out in space (afterall, its imagination isnt it) and then i thought, 'whats my scenery?' -------------





beautiful clear blue skies, that just goes on forever. the countryside type of atmosphere, no technology, no city smells like smoke etc. no sound of cars, or trucks or planes etc., just the beautiful sounds of birds that you can just listen to and forget yourself, and completely let go. green grass covering hills that roll on into the distance, and trees, but not so many that there are sticks all over the ground or makes it look like a forest. the ground completely trubulence free of rocks and sticks. the hills not too steep, but towering mountains in the background, just to give a sense of adventure and imagination of climbing up them. the hills just perfect to be able to run around on, up and down, just a single soul, not needing anyone, just a free spirit, alone and loving it. after running, being able to just flop onto the eautiful crisp green grass below and watch the skies. close my eyes and listen to those birds and feels the cool breeze on my face as a relief from the sun. just able to lie there, a single soul, not needing anyone, but loving it. if there were people who i was able to share it with, we would have the best time there ever could be. we would run around on the hills, and then lie in a circle and talk, or look up at whispy white clouds above and try to make out animals or objects, and laugh. then, just lie in silence with the cool breeze and the sounds of birds. a creek, also, would be nearby, the hypnotising sounds of its water flowing could relax anyone. the cool, clear water with rocks that are able to be climbed across. the creek floor would be pebbles of all colours and sizes, and stones capable of skipping.




yeah. thats my dream place. my getaway.

Jelly went camping!!

well - first let me explain jelly. jelly = the combination of the two names Jess and Lucy. (me and my friend). explanation over :) yeah, we r a bit well... crazy to put it simply hehe.

anywayss. went to her house friday night (the official beginning of the holidays YAY) and we watched she's the man (one of the best movies ever) and some episodes of Big Bang theory (hahahaha) and Lucy straightened my hair! she did a really good job. i love it straightened. we were taking photos and laughing and trying not to burn me :P. we ended up geting to bed around 10 coz her dad told us to sleep coz we had to wake up early in the morning. which we did -well for me anyway, who on a weekend/holiday usually wakes up 9am or later, never before - we got up at around 6.30am. ate breakfast (coco pops haha) and walked around helping lucy's parents pack.

then we left and in the car lucy's dad had a minor panic attack thinking he'd left the keys to unlock the campertrailer at home, but he eventually found them. her parents taste in music isnt great... me n lucy had to resort to listening to her ipod the whole way there, and to save power turning it off when we herad a song that we didnt mind (a rare case, but it happened) because up at big riggen, which was where we were going there was no power except in the bathrooms, but we hadnt brought chargers and even if we had i doubt we wouldve sat in the bathroom for half an hour or more waiting for her ipod to charge (tho later on we wished we could with our cameras coz they ran out of battery). two hours later after eventually passing where we were actually meant to be going then turning around and finding it, we arrived. we found our spot and set up. me n luy went for a walk down to the lake that veered off into a creek. its really nice there, and we took lots of photos of it later on. when we were all set up, which didnt take long, Jelly set out for a walk around the camp site, with, of course, my camera at the ready, whenever we saw somewere that looked like it would make a nice photo we would take one (hence the reason for the dead cameras :P) i think, over the two days, i ended up with about 120 photos combined (phone & camera because whn my camera died i used the phone as backup) and eventually lucy's camera died aswell, so we used them well.

we went for a few drives around the area, looking at other camp sites, and a really nice one was barney view lodge. had a creek and everything. fires are allowed etc. we got ice creams on the way back in, and wen we reached our camp, lucy's dad suggested we played frisbee, so, Jelly played, with skill im sure has never been seen before, frisbee. it was quite a sight. two teenage girls running around after a flying disk while in such immense laughing hysterics it was a wonder we were still standing. i just wish we had it on camera... couldve gotten heapsss of hits on youtube with our amazing skills. oh well. :)

we ended up, over the two days, spending alot of our time down at the lake. i found this boulder that was shaped perfectly as a seat, and just over the hill it was on, in the water it looked like someone had formed a mini pool in the middle of the river with rocks shaped like a heart, so, being the adventurous person i am, went to walk across and sit on one of the rocks, and i was in denim shorts, so i was hoping like hell i didnt fall in. and amazingly i didnt, because i am known to be clumsy. maybe its wearing off... hahahahahaha. i eventually coaxed lucy to come out aswell and we sat in the heart of rocks for a while, then decided to go back. we came bacjt he next day and found a trail up that way on the land. a tree scratched my arm which feels like its sunburnt, but its just the scratches. off to the right (the boulder and the heart of rocks was on the left) side of the lake was bush which we walked through for a while (again, some pretty good photo opps)

then on the way home the next day the ipod had to be postponed because th battery was running low, so to block out the music, we played battle ships (for the fourth time that weekend, lucy was persistant that she would beat me, i had already won 3 times the previous day haha) and she did end up winning, so we decided we had to take a photo of the moment. then if was out with the ipod again, and an hour later i was home, and my tiredness had cought up to me. i was absolutely buggered.

so today literally, all i have done is clean my room which took me half an hour and the rest of the day i have been reading and finished my book. now i need to find a book to take camping next week, coz i was planning on taking that one!! haha.

i will talk soonish.

have a good holiday!!

great weekend

well it all started on friday night, when i went ot laser force with some friends outside school. it was so much fun! we were all laughing our heads off when we got shot. and the suit thingo u wear would like talk to you and give away where u were hiding which was annoying. when u get shot, ur out for 10 seconds, then ur 'phaser' turns back on. so it was hilarious when someone would stand there waiting for u to turn back on so they could shoot you, and someone came up behind them and shot them, then u turn back on and u can shoot the person who shot them (if that makes sense haha) then we'd come out, load up on lollies pizza and pretty much junk, then have loads of energy for our next 'mission' (which is what they call them).
i got home at around 11.00pm.

then i had to wake up in the morning because we were going to southbank for riverfire(picture is of city @ night) !!!! i LOVE riverfire. its so fun. our family goes every year, usually with friends. this year we went with jacks family. we went around fro a walk because we had like 5 hours till the fireworks. me n jack ended up going around on our own, just having a look around and talking. then we went back to where we were sitting and we just lay there for a while listening to music, then the parents and siblings came back. i seriously felt like i was burning so badly, but i had actually put sunscreen on, so i didnt actually burn!! i was wearing short board shorts and a shirt, and my hair was really curly coz id washed it that morning, so i wore it down, but it got really hot and put it up. at one stage when i was lying down, this one guy walked past and i had my sunnies on and everything. and he winked at me!! i was like ohmygod, awkward! i looked over at jack to see if he saw him, but he didnt, and i just started laughing, and he was like ok then?? there were some really good looking guys there tho! and of course coz it was hot, they were walking around with no shirts and they had abs. i was like jackkk r u looking at girls in bikinis?? he was like no of course not... and then he was like r u looking at tanned guys with no shirts?? so i said of course not... and we just started laughing. while we were waiting for the fireworks, i had brought these like head bopper things with smiley faces on it, and it flashed, and jack had brought a jester hat with bells and flashing lights on it that he had gotten @ rochedale fete and my sister had this punk wig that was blue and white and we kept mixing and matching them all and tking photos. it was so funny, i was wearing the wig and the smiley face thing, then jack wore the wig and made it like the hairstyle that guys have how they out the hair in front of their eyes and we were taking the mickey out of the guys who had that hairstyle like we'd take it in turns at swapping the wig and we'd do the little flicky thing that those people do, but making it look more like a twitch. we were in stitches laughing.
the fireworks were the best tho. it was amazingggg. i kept singing along to the songs and i was recording all the fireworks on camera. me n jack kept yelling out the colours and were yelling out which colours we wanted. he would yell out pink (lol) and i would yell out red and yellow. then wen the ones that shimmered came out, i was like SHINYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! and everyone was laughing at me. this is the last year they will do the dump and burn with the F111s and they were just as awesome as usual. the finale of the fireworks was absolutely amazinggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg it was like allllllllllll the fireworks they owned were just let out all at once and just exploded in a sea of colour. absolutely awesome. then afterwards we walked around then back to the car, and home. jacks family came back to our place for a coffee and we watched the footy.


then today we went out to see our friends that we havent seen in ages. we've known them since i was in preschool or before. me n curtis used to be best friends, but now we rnt that close, but me n his brother are pretty good friends. we kicked around a soccerball around for while then just went to sit talk and eat the lunch his mum made.it was fun. we did alot, but it was pretty much just the same thing. me n chris kicking around a soccerball, sitting outside and talking, watching a movie with caitlin, chris and the sisters, and eating lunch.

so this weekend was lots of fun!! but let the school week begin, along with the........... EXAMS! ugh yuk. its ok, LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL THEN THE HOLIDAYS!! i am sleeping over at lucy's house friday night then camping with them saturday - sunday. then in the second week we r going camping with the usual group of families we go with. its gonna be awesome.

----- talk to ya later!! -----

bridge to brissy!!

did the bridge to brisbane today!!! ong it was AWESOME! did it with our netball team. had to wake up at 5.00 (yeah, in the morning... i know right...) but it wasnt too bad. i actually felt reallyyy awake. i was racing around (in the dark might i add) getting ready coz my coach was coming to pick me up, so all i ate was a banana.

went back to their place and waited for everyone to get there then got going. we were stuck in traffic for ages obviously coz half the bridge was closed off. we finally got there and stood around for a while then joined the thousands of people waiting to get onto the bridge. we shuffled along and finally got there. it was so funny, coz there was a guy standing there with a microphone talking and next thing we know pia runs off and asks the guy to say hi to chloe so he announced her name over and everyone started cheering and she was sooo embarrassed and it was hilarioussss!!

me n drassinah promised we would stay together, because we r of the same fitness level, and we all started running up the bridge, and it was ok to start and then i felt like i was gonna die, because i knew i hadnt even done 1km yet. me n drass tried but just couldnt run up that bridge. the backs of my lower legs were burning like all fury, and drassinah said hers were too, so we started to walk. the bridge was hellish. it was by far the worst part of the 'race'. i thought i was going to collapse!! when we got to the end it was like a sigh of relief, though we were still in pain, but we knew that there wouldnt be any more hills for at least 9 and a half km. we started taking photos and just having a great time. this was where it started to get fun. we decided that running wasnt fun, it was just painful. so we walked, talked, looked at peoples costumes, and took photos of pretty much everything!

a few random people talked to us, which was cool. and we saw some pretty random and unique costumes. there was even a guy in a mankini!! (it was disgusting coz he was old haha) i think he lost a bet and had to :P. we saw this whole group of clowns and talked to them, and they had bubbles!!! YAY!! hehe

it was the best feeling just walking through streets and seeing how far we could go it was such a great feeling. we finally finished, and we dont know our times yet, they havent uploaded them onto the site yet, but i shall get back to u with that :)

anyway, we went and got our free shirts and bags, went to get some fruit n met up with everyone and went to wait for a taxi. we waited.... and waited.... aaaaannnnnnnnddddd waited.... then it finalllyyyyyy came (after we had all sucked the helium out of our balloons and were laughing at eachothers high pitched voices) and got in. pia... being pia... started singing 'the wheels on the maxi taxi go round and round etc etc' then started saying random things all in that tune. we could not stop laughing. it was the besttttttt day ever.

excepttt that now i am so tired and my legs feel like they r gonna drop off and i have pulled a muscle behind my knee (and it has been hours since i finished). i so dont wanna go to school tomorrow :(

anyway, if u live in brisbane, i DEFINITELY recommend doing it next year! but make sure u take it cruisy if u arent too keen on running, dont try to push urself coz then it isnt fun. oh and make sure u bring a friend OBVIOUSLY.

cyas later!! (by the way the pic is of me n drass somewhere on the gateway bridge haha)

~la~la~la~la~

haha as u can see ive given up trying to think of titles. :P

went to the ekka last week! it was great. i went on this ride that like flipped me upside down and around and yeah it was fun haha. i had a 5 day weekend after that! it was great. coz we had wed and thurs off, then i didnt go to school fri, then there was saturday and sunday. how awesomee. i went up to rochedale primary with jack for the day to help out with a junior sports day sausage sizzle. omg all i ate that day was bread haha. we had to set out the bread on napkins in piles, but we didnt use the end bits, so we just ate some of them when we felt like it. it was a fun day. me n jack get along well. he found this cardboard cylinder thing, and ripped it so it was like a spiral, then he put it on his arm and he started going on abou tho he was a power ranger and his awesome skills, and i couldnt stop laughing. we talked heaps, and all these teahcers r like :O r u wagging school. in a joking kinda way, coz we know them all. but it was awkward seeing teachers i used to have.

saturday : WE WON NETBALL! its a miracle! we had the whole team there, and we won! 29- 26. it was so exciting for us all. we were cheering n everything hahaha. how sad. not that we care when we lose, we r just used to it. anyway just wanted to mention that we dont always lose... :)

had a maths test on... monday. it was pretty easy, and we got our results back today. i got 16/17 for knowledge, and then i got 4 1/2 / 11 for modelling and problem solving. so thats A+ for Knowledge, D+ for modelling, and i think i hav a C overall. oh and a B+ for communication. im pretty happy with that. seeing as i used to be known for being pretty much shit at maths in primary school. id pass, but only just haha. and it took me agessss to learn my multiplication. i think i was more focused on english. and speaking of that, we did our oral on tuesday. me n dishmini. we had to do a comedy and make ourselves superheroes. just any random superhero. i was countess pencil: powers - i can accurately and lethally sharpen pencils in 2.375 seconds and i have awesome fighting skills. dishmini was notepad-a-tron: powers - lines on her notepad paper would shoot out and tie people up etc. and she can read minds. everyone said it was really good. so im happy with that one too. lanas was funnyyyy. she was lana lightning and dilinjan was rolls (he dressed up all fat with pillows etc) it was really good. some were really lame tho.

lately ive gotten back into editing photos. ive found some from last year and ive been editing them. its fun. i like changing it around and making them more interesting. the photo up the top of this post is one i did yesterday. i like the whole dots thing, it reminds me of stuff u see on shirts. :)

well i think im gonna go now. should probably start trying to memorise the periodic table. yuk

you are my sun, my moon, my stars, my everything

woah its been a while since i was on here, and so much has happened! ok, well, me n michael r going out now :-D i am so happy about it. I made a huge mistake when i ended it last time. I think i just freaked coz i'd never done anything like this before. oh well that doesnt matter now.

It's like when he's around me, he's a breath of fresh air. He makes me feel special (not in a retarded way :-P ) and I never want to let go of the feeling. When he hugs me, or holds me in his arms its like all the weight of the world disappears and I just feel so light and free and happy. this sounds way too soppy for it to be me saying it, but its true.

our 1 month in 16 days! not counting today or the 22nd ... 22.07.09 he asked me. its only one month, but its still better than what, less than a week like last time haha.

he sits with us in the mornings, and sometimes at lunch... which is getting less now. sure it makes me depressed when he doesnt come, but i dont want him not to see his friends. coz it could end out that he never sees them, and isnt as close as he was with them, maybe too much so. (if that makes sense...) all my friends are going on about how he should always sit with me, or i should sit with him, but as much as i want to, it would be soooooo weird. they r all 2 years older than me, one is my friends sister, one's another one of another friend's brothers, and there's dion aswell. I would feel so out of place, and have absolutely no clue what to do or say. it sucks. but its ok, at least he spends some time with me.

ive gotta go do some homework now. ill try to update this a bit more often. cya laterrr.

writers block....

is so annoying. i dont know whether i have mentioned this yet, but i write stories, not like little fairy tales with a prince and a princess and he saves her blah blah. thats way too simple and boring. im more into the long, chapter, fantasy things. so the one im writing at the moment i reckon is my best one yet (apparently im good at it.. lol)

i write - not coz im nerdy (i hate being called that just because of what i like) - its to get my mind off the real world and make my own worlds, and just escape reality. but at the moment i have writers block. i have reached a point in my story where i cant go on, which means im stuck with frustration and reality (see post titled 'why is it so hard') so i just come on here instead.

ok, so...


school starts back on tuesday. ugh. how UNfun. ive got... umm... hahaha i cant even think of what i have. oh wait, ive got english... and HPE, science andddd ummm OH com tech! oh fun. actually yeah, thats not such a bad day. com tech's better than i have in my mind. anddd its gonna be raining apparently. i lovee rain. yayy!! so i think that tuesday'll be good. i hope it keeps my mind of things. i mean hey, what are friends and textbooks for aye?

wat good timing there is a good movie on tv now, and i have nothing else i can think to say so im gonna go!

byeeee

why is it so hard?

ok. lets start at the very very very beginning, starting in about grade 3 or 4. i had my first crush. i couldnt stop thinking about him - ever. my friend got her first boyfriend. i was a bit jealous to start with, but got over that quickly. i was her support. i helped her think of what to get him for his birthday, when they had fights i would try help solve it, and when they broke up, i told her it would be okay, he was stupid anyway. and since then, that has been my position in relationships. the friend. but always liked that same guy, always just wanting to tell him so i could have what my friends had. years passed, and i had been there for my friends, all having bfs, then breaking up, bf, breaking up, bf, breaking up, jess always on the side lines, being the support, just wishing she could have the same as she saw her friends having. i know alot about relationships, but not from my own experience. ive seen it soooo many times with my friends i know it down pat. til grade 7 i still liked the same guy, through all of that. my friends convinced me it was love (lol). finally, i got the guts to tell him. i was so ready. i knew i could do it. so that night, i told him. he didnt reply for a while, but then he said - uh oh. and i was like oh crap. so i asked him what? and he said he liked me too (at this point i was sooo happy) but then he said that he liked this other girl as well, and (the worstt bit) she had asked him out that day at school. i was crushed. if only i had been quicker. i was absolutely heartbroken. i cried myself to sleep for at least a week.


but the whole friends going out with guys didnt stop. so i kept on going being the best friend, always there for them. i liked different guys from then, but got over them etc. now, this year, i finally find a guy i really like. michael. i thought he was absolutely perfect. he doesnt treat me younger than i am, he doesnt treat me like a girl, we get along really well, he doesnt keep stuff from me that he thinks i cant handle, he seemed perfect. then we confessed to each other that we liked each other, and were sort of like bf and gf for a while. i think about a month. i had waited so long for something like this. then i broke it off with him last night.

but wait!! before you start thinking, but she's crazy! he was perfect. yes, he was. but let me explain something first. i get these vibes from people. this may sound crazy, but i do. i can tell whether i like someone before i even talk to them, like my friends friend, i have never talked to her, but i have stood near her and i can just tell that i do not like her at all. but enough of that..............

with michael, in the movies a few days ago we held hands, and i thought it was the best thing ever. then after the movies, at home, i was thinking about it, and about michael, and just thought that this was all wrong. completely wrong. what was i doing?? the more i thought about it, the more i realised, michael's vibe was a friend one. the type i would get from one of my guy friends at school, and the more i thought about it, the more i realised, this relationship wasnt going to work out, even if it did start, it wouldnt last. just because i would have gone into it with a doubt.

i dont think michael realises how much i am sorry. i thought he understood, but noo. he showed me he doesnt, because he told me was a bit angry at me. yeah, he said he was more sad, but the angry bit shows me he doesnt understand. there is no way i would have just dumped him for no good reason. i would not, especially after all the heartbreak i had been through, i did not at all want to put someone else through it, and i thought so much about this before i did it. he just doesnt understand, and now i am actually quite annoyed with him.

its just frustratinggg. why does it have to be so hard to tell people how we feel, or dont feel?? *sigh*

skinniess

omg i have to tell you!! yesterday was taylas birthday, and we went bowling, which i suck so bad at, but it was heaps of fun and i couldnt stop laughing. after we went to maccas 4 ice cream, then walked around hyperdome for a little bit, and went to jay jays (my favourite clothes place everr) coz i wanted to have a look at coloured jeans, and we tried some on, and i ended up getting....


BRIGHT RED ONES!! they are awesomeeee. i love them. i am wearing them now with my black mickey mouse shirt :P i have a plan to go completely embarrass my family at garbo and wear them and my bright yellow smiley face shirt. mua hahaha. i dont care if people stare at me, but my fashion loving grade 7 sister will! she hates it when i wear daggy clothes out, (not that these r daggy at allllll) but these r extremely bright and she will be embarrassed just walking with me looking like that!! i dont see her problemmm!! :D they match hehe. just extremely bright. im such a nice sister ayye. oh well, revenge for being such a stuck up bitch i guess =D

hehe

wow havent blogged in agesss

wow!! i only just remembered i have this, and heaps has been going on, so i was like.. hmmm... might as well use it :)

well, its holidays, thank GOD!! there's still like a week left ( again, thank GOD!!) and ive practically been lazy XD i mean, what r holidays for?? watching movies, going to the movies with friends, going to friends houses, going to garbo, and SLEEPING!! and forgetting everything you learnt in maths last term :)

we've been going to netball games lately. (not my netball games, like actual proffessional netball - firebirds games) and we entered a competition to win a plasma tv one time, you know, why not!? and my sister won it!! my little sister who is in grade 5!! how cool!! it was a few weeks ago and we were all like yayyy we can watch state of origin on it, and its gonna be awesomee. but then we got it and the screen was cracked!! i was like arghh. but we r getting a new, hopefully not broken one, today :)

went to the movies to see transformers 2 on monday. its greatt!! loved it. i invited michael, coz we r kinda going out now ( so happpyyy ) but he hasnt actually asked me to be his gf yet... ( kind of annoying me, but thats the only frustrating thing ) but we both know we like eachother and like, practically bf and gf, like the whole goodnight text etc. i just reallyyyy want him to make it official and ask me. anywayyy, the movies was fun. we got there super early, and walked around garbo a bit. went to cold rock and cait got ice cream, which we al had a bit of. haha. and then in the movie everyone was like whispering to me to get closer to michael. and i was like noooo leave me alone. and then being the annnoyyinggg people they are they all moved over like 3 seats, leaving us just sitting there, and then josh would move over and tell me to get closer, and this happened heaps of times, with different people!! so frustrating, but i guess i didnt mind in the end. kind of one of those, 'get over it' things. but yeah, the movie was really good, and if u liked transformers 1, GO SEE NUMBER 2!!

all the telling me to get closer was all worth it... coz after it when we all stood up, he came over and put his arm around my waist... so i didnt mind. he asked me if i liked it, and i couldnt even think properly, i was more concentrating on his arm.. so i just said 'yeah, it was good' instead of 'omg it was awesomeee!!' how sad ayye.

well... i think thats it, so im gonna go now!!

bye xoxo

allo!

heyy

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had netball today!! it was great! i almost got player of the match... the caits dad (our coach) said to give it to liv, but then he was like, wait, no, jess! but caits mum had already written liv on the cold rock certificate thing. i was like dammit. oh well i almost got it. every1 said i played really well, so i am veryy proud of myself. :)

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omg omg omg

im like really into coffee at the momento, and mums always looking 4 different types 4 me =D. coz u can get these sachets of mocha, latte, and all these dofferent flavours of them, but she only ever gets me mocha (my favourite). but NOW i have a new favourite!! its called ................................................................................................................... chocolate mudcake latte!!!!!!!!!!!!! =0 i love it!! its like a caffeine filled hot chocolate.

i had it last night while watching journey to the centre of the earth (great movie) and it smelt so good and i was like ahhhhhhh its sooooo niceeee. so i have a new favourite coffee now =] and it is the best... my mums silly giving me caffeine tho =P i can go high about an hour or half an hour after drinking it, as my friends found out 2 weeks ago @ netball hehehe

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wellll im gonna go.

coz i cant think of anything to say haha.

cya x

luv yu

random stuffs

i hav no clue why but i felt like doing my top ten of bests and worsts :P i guess i just wanna see what i can complain about now, and see if i can top my number 1 of best (but i doubt it) :)

BEST:

10 movies
9 getting player of the match 4 netball
8 writing my own stories (so much freedom n relaxation)
7 the smell of melted chocolate
6 meeting a new friend @ camping ( yeah thats u michael haha)
5 playing netball
4 first birthday while camping
3 camping
2 my family
1 my friends

WORST

10 bad smells
9 losing a friend
8 finding out that he doesnt like me :(
7 sprained ankle ( kinda sick of it now, but used to it )
6 parents annoying me
5 almost fainting coz of stomach pains
4 my sister
3 falling over infront of people i dont know (embarrassingg)
2 being extremely sick that i cant even eat for about 3 days, so i have no energy to move (it was HORRIBLE)
1 death - thinking about it, knowing someone who has passed away etc

andddd i found some other thingo that i thought i caould so aswell coz im really bored :)

Can you name 22 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Anyone you're thinking of, in no order. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 22 people. Absolutely no cheating and switching positions on the list, either! Ready, Start!Now answer the questions according to the names listed below:
1 cait
2. drass
3. mitch
4. logan
5. galt
6 travers
7 michael
8 tom a
9 dishmini
10 sarah c
11 josh (sose)
12 cait 2 (science class)
13 makarov
14 dilinjan
15 tayla
16 dion
17 jacob
18 norup
19 chris
20 curtis
21 mitchel (bus)
22 bree (bus)


THE QUESTIONS:How did you meet 14?at skool

What would you do if you never met 6?Umm.. met them 10 years ago??

Did you ever like number 5? no, sorry :P

Would 10 & 17 be a good couple? hahaha nahh (at least it ended up guy n girl)

Is number 11 gay/lesbian? OMG NO!!

Do you know any of 2's family members? yeppp quite a few :)

What's 16's favorite color? ummm green?? i have no idea

What would you do if 18 just confessed he/she liked you? i would saay sorry i like someone else
but i highly doubt he would like me (i hope)

What language does 20 speak? jibberish english duh

Who is 9 going out with? some guy called shane

How old is No 13? 15

When did you last see 8?yesterday at skool haha

Would you ever date 7? maybe... if he asked.

2 single ? changes all the time :P (shes popular) but atm, yepp

What is 19's middle name? im not sure..

Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 1? does best friends 4 life count??

Where does 15 come from? Melbourne!! coz shes specialll

Are number 7 & 8 Best friends? lol no i dont think they even know eachother haha

Best feature of number 10?? her eyesss there so pretty lol

What is your funniest memory of 12?? i dont know....

Have you ever hooked up with number 22? BAHAHAHAHAA noooo not lesbian!!

What is your favourite memory of 1? too manyyyyy

Would you ever sleep with number 15?. ewwyyyy nooooooo

Where does 17 go to school? mansfield (dont stalk him :P)


On a scale of 1-10, how sexy is number 1? oh veryyyy :P
ummm 7?? idn

Have 7 and 3 ever been together? bahaaha no

Do you know one of 21s cousins? no, i know his sister tho (see number 22)


well, i gtg now, dinner x

trade fair / they can be so annoying sometimes

trade fair today!! it was cool, cait bought me a flower, and i bought a balloon for a specific someone (well, cait bought it for me, to give to him, coz she reckons he likes me... i doubt it tho, (*story of my love life*) i didnt end up giving it to him tho, coz on the bus this avo we were being stupid with it, and i was like oops! i was gonna give that to *him*. but it was worth the mistake, it was funny and fun at the same time.

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this morning wasnt as good, tho. I thought I was going to KILL mitch and matt. They were such idiots!My friends (especially mitch) have this theory. The reckon that I am going out with michael, so mitch was telling me who he was gonna tell and like he was saying all these people who, if he told them, would make me die from embarrassment - not coz theyd tease me, because they wouldnt, just the fact that they thought we were going out. (e.g. dion - one of michaels best friends and tayla, dions sister, and michaels friend) and thennnnn to make it all worse, michael walks in through where we were standing and i said hi to him and asked why he wasnt there yesterday blah blah and mitch runs for his life (typical) and then matt goes, 'he was gonna tell dion about it all.' and michael was like what? and matt kept going even thought i tried to make the idiot stop 'mitch. he was going to tell dion about u and jess going out.' now, this doesnt sound too bad, but michael didnt know about all this stuff going on with mitch being certain we r going out, so i was so angry with matt, and michael just walked away. i thought he was annoyed, because usually he says cya or goodbye to me at least, but as soon as matt said that, he turned and walked away. i got so mad with matt, and u could tell he felt bad, but i didnt care. i was annoyed, and worried, coz i thought michael was annoyed too (i hate it when my friends are sad, angry annoyed etc. lol)

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but i think he is fine. he seemed fine on the bus =] which is good. but i still havent really forgiven matt, even though he thinks i have. ive forgiven mitch tho because i knew he was just joking.

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so yeah, today was funish. half n half

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i got netball training. oh yay, murderous coach on the loose again. we have been losing, so he works us harder =S its still fun tho :)

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cya!!! x

fun run yesterday :)

fun run was great!! it was awesome, i hung around with the power rangers and hello kitty, but not her for long... annnnddd, soorryyy, but i didnt take my camera coz im stupid = but i will get next year, i HAVE to. i actually ran. i spent more than half the time walking, but i sprinted a few times, and once michael tried to trip me, he's so nice ayye. :P
(it was all yesterday so its a bit hard to say it all, sorry)

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yesterday avo, i came home, and like, on monday, mitch (caits bf, and one of my friends) said that me n michael were secretly going out. so i told michael yesterday, just coz i think its funny, and he was like farout we dont even spend that much time together! and then he said to tell people that we were, just to shut them up, so i told mitch today what he said and now mitch has gone around telling people!! talk about a joke gone WRONG!!! and mitch knows we rnt going out, but yet he is still telling people!! TRADGEDY!!! ill try to get him to stop, and i have to warn michael that there might be some rumours going around =\

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oh well. itll stop soon i hope... HOPE
and michael wasnt at school today, so i couldnt warn him today. ill see if he is there tomoro. :)

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neways i think i have run out of things to talk about. and guess what! i got some pictures off the common drive of the fun run, so i can show u them and yes, i am in one of them =P ill get them to u tomoro, i hope.

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well, i have officially officially run out of things to say. im gonna go on msn and be social.
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lazy lazy me :)

it has been raining for ages (i love rain so this is great) so netball was cancelled, and even though i love rain, i was looking 4ward to netball today, i had a feeling we might have won, and i had the energy for it today, but meh.

so instead.... i was a lazy ass and sat on my computer all day watching top gear on youtube!! god i love that show. its so funny. im gonna put the link here, so i cn just come here and click on it instead of searching youtube everytime :) [ http://www.youtube.com/user/topgear?blend=1&ob=4 ] check it out if u want. but yeah, i watched episodes and episodes of them i felt so lazy!!! but it was good hehe.

but tomoro i really should do my eng, sose, science and home ec assignments and my maths homework. ugh how terrible does that sound ayye!?

i love rain so much! i so want to just run out in it, but i kinda cant, coz mum was like where r u going and i said to stand in the rain and she just laughed at me. and she was like, 'oh ur serious, no. i dont think so.'

anywayy, ive got some more laziness to be attending to (watching movie on tv =] ) so i shall probably be back on here tomoro to moan to u about all my homework =P ill leave u in suspense hehe.

bye

wow

this week has gone like sooooo quicklyyyy!! and no day is a boring day anymore, which is good, i guess the friend thing has stuck and it just keeps me happy all the time. the wondering about michael has kept me a tiny bit occupied, but its not really worrying me.

the only annoying thing is that cait isnt doing the walkathon anymore!!! how ANNOYINNGG! im just gonna find a cartoon that wears normal people clothes and go as them and hang out with the guys. :) itll still be fun.

omg its haydens bday tomoro!! gasp!! i cant go to his bday party becoz of netball, (again, not letting me do something with my friends, first the movies, now this...) and i couldve met his gf, but now i cantt. ive only seen pictures and talked to her, but havent seen her or tlked to her face to face. so annoying.
but im still in a good mood, well, i will be until i do my maths hw, but ill hold off on that till sunday, coz i cant be stuffed right now.

i dont hate netball, just to let u know, i actually love it so muccchh but it just kinda stops me sometimes from doing stuff. oh well, we have to make sacrifices 4 the things we love ayye. I just wish michael could come watch, coz then he would take back everything he said about me being clumsy, because (not trying to sound up myself here) i have been told i am very good at what i do on the court. I have lots of stuff ups, like jumping to early or late, not getting the rebounds etc etc, but usually i am quite good. he could laugh at the stuff ups, but he wouldnt laugh at me 4 being clumsy =] (im Goal Keeper, a defender, for ppl who have no clue =] )

well im gonna go now coz i cant thnk of anything to say haha
X bye X

just a bit of yesterday.

so, yesterday was the strike *awesommmee* and i went to... caits house and we played on her wii, watched hairspray (like we always used to, we love it, we know almost every line and say it b4 they do :) teehee) andd yeah, played with her dogs and her sister and ate pizza 4 lunch.. it was coolll *thumbs up*

lol her sister is 5, right, and she is so cute, i love her. but anyway, she was like running around and there was this wooden box on the floor and she fell INTO the box!! she grazed her arm, and it wasnt funny at the time, but when i think about it, that sounds hilarious! she fell into the box LOL!

i am 14 on wii fit age aparently!! thats my age so thats awesome! and i have good balance! yay. i like wii fit its fun. but i am really bad with mario and sonic @ the olympic games wii. hehehehe i suck at it. especially archery :P

so yeah. it was fun. and i heard in maths today that they r thinking about having another strike in term 3! yay!!! its awesome! i hope it goes ahead. can u tell i love school? :)

neways homework to do.
x BYE x

FLURO - NESS

omg how cool is this. our school has a fun run thingo to raise money and the theme is cartoon or 80s and me n cait r going as FLURO 80s chicks!! we r gonna be full fluro with wrist bands, head bands and glasses!! and the clothes of course! the guys r going as the power rangers!! hahaha. and one has to be pink!! but hayden already shot-gunned it, no he's not gay lol. i reckon its gonna be the best day. im not sure what lanas going as, it might be hello kitty, which would suit her really well. we're all gonna have so much fun!!

me n cait r gonna go shopping 4 fluroness stuff >.< itll be so fun. we r gonna wear fluro shirt, fluro skinnies or tights or something, and then some fluro wristbands, and a fluro headband and and and yeah!! itll be so cool. oooohh and those big glasses, but fluro of course!! hehehe. i cant waitt. the guys'll be so funny!! i mean the powerrangers!!! hahahahaha i need to get heaps of photos and i promise ill blog them on here!! promise!! i guess i owe u a few photos ayye.

its in about 2 weeks tho, so ull have to wait! keep u in suspense. ull probably laugh more than uve ever laughed before at us. haha.

its gonna be so cool. i love wearing loud clothes, and fluro everywhere? i call that VERYYYY loud. and i love cait heaps, so itll be fun shopping with her all day!

anyway i think im going to go...
ill talk to you l8r!!

xx bye xx

there's always a silver lining..

yay. i guess there is a good side to doing NAPLAN. i havent had any homework this week! HOW EXCITING!! the teachers reckon we are studying (XD) pfftt THEY WISH!!

this is so cool, i love making new friends!! me and michael are getting like really good friends!! i hope he thinks that about me too, lol thatd be funny. im like going on with all this stuff to my friends about how awesome he is and how he is like one of my best friends now, and he just thinks im some chick two years younger than him that he met camping. LOL. could u imagine??

today was great. i have been in such a good mood lately!!! maybe its somethingto do with the not liking that guy anyomore. i feel kinda free and happy and always energetic and just laughing at anythinggg. its so good!! i feel great! i dont know if its that, or if school has suddenly gotten so boring i have to make myself happy to survive it... =\ meh! who cares!! im just in such a good mood!!!!!

well im gonna go use this good mood to do my assignment 4 english, i might not moan about it atm.... lol
cya!!

just a heap of today

yeah hi :)

i had naplan today. ugh, its so borinnggg. it was language conventions like grammar and punctuation and stuff and then we had to write a narrative. (i dont mean to sound up myself here) i am quite good at english and found so boringly easy because i knew it all. and then the narrative was on 'the box' i mean, what the hell?? a box!? i did mine on these two people (michael and jazz) who are training to be builders and they are digging and find this golden box and r told not to open it, but they can keep it. they r told not to open it because the last people to open it were never seen again. so, obviously, the curiosity gets to them and they open it and they end up getting sucked into this different world and they have to escape etc etc. yeah, it was reallllyyy lame. :)

have u ever been liked by anyone, and u only ever thought of them as a friend and nothing more? and wen they ask u out u say no (in a nice way o course) and then 3 months later they still like you? no? well, welcome to my life. this guy has been my friend for YEARS and about 3 months ago he asked me out, i said no, sorry, i just see us as friends blah blah. so, i knew it would take him a while to get over it, coz i have been in the same situation before, but he hasnt even tried!!! he still likes me, and is always telling my friends 'oh, even if she and [the guy i stopped liking today] dont work out when she asks him outill always be here for her' and 'i wish i knew what she was thinking, like if she was ever considering it or just said it' and it is getting really annoyinggg. AND HE STILL ISNT OVER ME! argh. how frustrating! ok, i get that u can really hate it when someone doesnt like you - happened to me heaps of times - but u dont have to go on and on with it and not even try to get over me! especially when he knew i liked someone! (not that that matters coz i dont like them anymore :] ) i wish he could stop making such a big deal over it. *sigh*

well, i have to go now =]

BYE x

the power of words

i am amazed. I used to always say i hated poetry. it was just a bunch of words splattered across the page made to ryhme. i mean, i knew that not all ryhmed, there r haikus, limericks, tankas, and ur plain old rhyme and of course heaps more. but i never liked them. they all sounded corny, fairytale-ish or in old english with all the 'where for art thou?' stuff. i would say i hated it.
but today, we have started this english assignment, which we have to get three poems, all relating to the same topic (e.g love, friendship, war, culture or something different) and take it apart, like find all the poetic devices (alliteration, onomatopeoia, etc) and find out what it really means, stuff like that. so basically just figuring out the authors thoughts on what he was thinking when writing the poem.
i chose to do 'racism' as my theme/topic/discourse (whatever u want to call it) and i was not looking forward to this assignment at all, but, i have read some of these poems, and thought about them, and they are so... powerful, strong and overwhelming. its truly amazing what they can get across in a few lines. even if it is 3 lines long (there was one like that) you can understand exactly how they feel and think.

i have completely turned. from poem non-carer to poem reader :)
i guess i might give other things that i have previously not liked a chance from now on!!

well i should get on with this assignment then ayye
BYE x