life has settled

at one stage there, my life seemed like one of those snow globe things, how it was all settled, and everything was working out well, and just staying there, but then its like someone came along and shook it, sending all those bits flying around, nothing fitting right and life pretty much going to hell. let me explain::

1. caitlin hung around with simone and didnt pay any attention to me
2. the guys didnt really talk to me much because they would be playing soccer
3. as a result of the above ( ^^^^^^^^^^^ ) i would sit on my own at lunch watching the guys like a loner (oh fun)
4. i have been considering breaking up with michael for quite a few weeks now (since about 2 weeks b4 holidays) and realised over the holidays i didnt want to go out with him anymore for definite. i didnt even miss him - but i couldnt get to talk to him to tell him.
5. if i did get the chance to talk to him, i wouldnt have been able to without crying for stupid nonreasons.

so yeah life sucked.

but now its awesome!!

cait and mitch broke up, (im not saying this is good) which made caitlin talk to me, because she trusted me enough to tell me she would, then she started hugging me and everything now. so, problem number one, is no more

problem #2 is also solved, because without having caitlin, mitch has become a better friend towards me, the same with the other guys, so i was playing soccer with them today which was funny. the guys have all started being stupid towards cait tho... they r teasing her and simone, but caitlin knows that just coz i hang with them doesnt mean i think the same as them, so i can be safely on both sides without people hating me aswell.

problems 3 & 4 were solved today at lunch. the last bits of the snow globe finally settling. michael came to our group, and we walked away and he suggested we didnt 'see eachother anymore' and i whole heartedly agreed, sooooooo relieved that he had done it. he started sounding like he was coming up with excuses i didnt really care about, but i listened anyway.

i still realllyyy wanna be friends with him, im just glad i dont have to awkwardly hug him anymore haha.

so yep - life is great atm, and i have to go.

i shall post again soonish.